You told me my scars are hideous and that I would burn in hell.
You said that I was selfish.
But my dear sister, how could you even think for one moment that would make me choose life over death?
And don’t tell me I’m going to burn in hell because hell.. It’s what I’m already burning in and YOU.. You are the selfish bitch that made me feel ugly and gross when all I need was someone to hold me and tell me that it will be okay, that time heals all wounds, my body would be beautiful no matter what, that I.. Your baby sister, was beautiful.
If I remember correctly, it was you who said I had a heart of black and an evil soul, so why wouldn’t I be doomed to hell anyways?
I should have never forgiven you for the day you made wrist slitting gestures while painting a devious smirk across your face. You were slicing my wrists that night.
So my dearest sister.. Look at your baby sister.. Look at her hideous scars and black heart and tell her your sorry and that you love her and that you had nothing to do with the fact that she is laying in her bed cut open with mascara stained down her cheeks… go ahead and tell her that she is the selfish one.
I told myself I wouldn’t care,
That I would just walk away and never look back.
But it isn’t that easy to do.
My heart belongs to you but yours belongs to someone els and knowing that is the most painful feeling ever.
It wasn’t suppose to be this way, you and me. It was suppose to be fun and easy.. I told you I didn’t want to care because I knew what was going to happen. But it all changed somewhere along the road. We weren’t just fucking anymore, we were making love and listening to each others hearts beat rhythmically for hours until we eventually fell asleep..
That won’t happen anymore because you have to go back to her.
You were hers first and I have no right to your heart and soul.
But I can’t be angry with you, it’s my fault I let you have my heart for safekeeping and I have to bare you taking it with you thousands of miles from home.
I just hope when you are there lying with her.. You think of me and how I would do anything to be the one you are sleeping beside..
Didn’t even realise it was her until her name popped up haha
She’s got scars on the outside
Says they’re the worst kind
And I don’t ask
She turns the lights out and locks the door..
Listen here beauties, just because a guy isn’t interested in you doesn’t mean you are worthless or aren’t good enough. Sometimes the connection isn’t mutual. They aren’t terrible for rejecting you either, they would be terrible if they led you on just because they don’t want to hurt your feelings. At least they are being honest. Are they missing out on a wonderful person? Maybe. But it’s just not meant to be. So instead of bashing them or over analyzing why you aren’t good enough, just accept it and move on the to the next one. There are tons of fishes in the sea that would love to have a chance to be with you and get to know you! (: start fishing!! 💜